♥ eileen babe bee ♥

Friday, September 28, 2007 ' 11:11:00 AM .

27/9/2007

1 more day to 29 sept! ah hahas... oh ya, i saw a lady that tatooed her whole leg until her ankle there... not just the normal black tatoo... it is a tatoo with colours... and guess what, she wore a dress... she did not tatoo her 2 legs... she only tatooed only one of the leg... meaning, the other leg is normal... i find it is rather over-doing it... so you think so? oh well...

came to school very late today... woke up late... forgot to set alarm... lols... hahas... for the first times, i missed to whole meeting 1... i have never missed meeting 1 so far... if miss, i usually miss the third meeting... oh well...

my class have been ok so far... people are communicating more now... hahas... slightly more noisy... class was rather ok... the start of the week are usually very sian... cause the facilitator rather boring... but on the overall, it is ok la...

after class today, went out with my friends to marina to eat steamboat... it is rather fun... we cracked funny and lame jokes... it is isaac's belated birthday... we got him to finish a can of beer that is 500ml... it took a long time for him to finish it... hahas... want to take a look? look at the video... :p however, he got his presents... guess he liked it... i got my present too... charles & keith voucher... hahas... thanks... :)

Wednesday, September 26, 2007 ' 11:15:00 PM .

26/9/2007

day ruined! said and did things that i should not have said... should have think twice...

sometimes, it takes alot of days to build some thing up... but it takes only a few moments to bring it down... start again...

downloaded new things in my lappy... & i just cleared my lappy's virus today... heng ah...

Tuesday, September 25, 2007 ' 9:04:00 AM .

25/9/2007

HOW FRIENDSHIP BREAK ?

Both Friends Will Think The Other Is Busy,
And Will Not Contact; Thinking It May Be Disturbing...
As Time Passes,
Both Will Think Let The OTher Contact,
After That each Will Think Why I Should Contact First ?
Here Your Love Will Be Converted To Hate,
Finally Without Contact The Memory Becomes Weak,
They Forget Each Other...
So Keep In Touch With Your Friends...
I Don`t Want To be One Of This Kind.
So Here I Am Saying To Every One
To Say,
Hello Dear,
I Am Fine Here,
Please keep in touch with me...

hahas... interesting? lols... things have been happeing quite fast and messy... things can be even caught in a surprise... can say quite stressful... lols... anyway, thanks for all the listening ears... my birthday is coming! lols... all presents must come come come ah... hahas... lols... kidding... :)

Friday, September 21, 2007 ' 8:56:00 AM .

20/9/2007

i am tired... i want to take a rest...

things seems so complicated and stressful...

i am not in the mood to do anything...

Wednesday, September 19, 2007 ' 10:02:00 PM .

19/9/2007

hahas... 10 more days to my birthday... lols... hahas...

class seems better now... a bit more noisy... a bit more fun... more noise, more chats... however, it still seems rather quiet... oh well...

i carried something heavy today... walked quite some distance... guess my muscles will grow... hahas... such a interesting experience that will not be easily forgotten... lols...

some things may not be easy... however, everything is still worth a try... but since it is brought to you... you will get through it... in the right way if you do it right... be positive and persevere...

forgiveness is letting go of e pain & e rite 2 get even...
its easy to doubt; learn to trust...

Tuesday, September 18, 2007 ' 9:39:00 PM .

18/9/2007

had been having some great moments recenty... thank you for all the smiles everyone gave me... espically the closer ones... hahas...

class had been ok today... though i am not a big fan of computing maths, it was ok... i thought the faci is a faci who will make things fun... but it turns out to be a normal one... lols...

some things may not seem like the way it is just by looking at it... find out the whole true story... when someone makes a mistake and apologise, forgiveness should be given...
that is why there is a thing called second chance... oh well...

Monday, September 17, 2007 ' 1:01:00 PM .

17/9/2007

school reopen already... sian... its a new class from now on... my previous class is W34G... now is W34E... not bad la... just opposite from my previous class... lols...

my class was rather quiet today... cause it is the first day? oh well... thank god i have one friend from my previous class that is the same class as me now...

the past few days have been ok... just work & work lor... then quite tired... lols... had this very open-minded customer yesterday... she wanted to try out one set of bikini... she went to the changing room and did not close the door... so that her boyfriend could watch her change...

there are many friends in one person's life... there are also many types of friends... hi-bye friends, normal friends, good friends, best friends... however, the thing that makes a friend special is if they stay in your life... some may only be of a temporary stay but some will last long... lols...

Monday, September 10, 2007 ' 10:08:00 PM .

10/9/2007

quite alot of things happened today... did not go for dance practise in the morning... went for an interview though... did not go for work the whole day... had something more important... was actually feeling better, but just now mummy making noise... about the interview and things that i have signed... though i don't know whether is it that bad, but sometimes, things may not be as bad as people thinks it is... lols... anyway, thanks for the company today, hubby...

Sunday, September 09, 2007 ' 3:28:00 PM .

9/9/2007

woke up today seeing my house empty... only left my maid and my galgal... haiz... suppose to go to work today... i came back cause i was not feeling too well... had rather bad sore eyes... my eyes were really red, itchy and abit pain... i have sensitive eyes... get affect easily... think it is a bad thing? haiz...

i went to work at first thinking that it would be ok soon... however, when i went to work, and the co-workers there were not so fun to play with... maybe they were not so open to me due to my sore eyes? i don't know... they asked me to go home... so i just went home lor...

then, i called some people that were close to me... close meaning, best friends or boyfriend/girlfriend or parents or family, etc... not mentioning who, but i was rather hurt by the way they spoke... not even a single question of " how are you feeling now" or "are you ok?" from them... one of them even raise the voice abit saying that if i want to go home then go home... another was just busy with other things... there is nothing wrong with any of these... but maybe i just wanted them to be more concerned? oh well... kind of expected something i guess... when the phone calls ended, i teared abit at the mrt station... how dumb... oh well... lucky it was not so serious, just abit only... oh well...

i am back home now... daddy is back home too... he is watching tv now while i am playing with my lappy... lols... don't know what to do at home... so i guess i'll just watch tv, play computer games, eat, sleep... sounds so pig... lols...

Saturday, September 08, 2007 ' 11:28:00 PM .

8/9/2007

an amazing guy that made my day... may be long... read it if interested... be patient... service was great... indescribable using words... check it out...

About Nick Vujicic
A Remarkable Story of God's Grace

It says in James 1:2 - "Consider it pure joy, my Brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds."

....To count our hurt, pain and struggle as nothing but pure joy? As my parents were Christians, and my Dad even a Pastor of our church, they knew that verse very well. However, on the morning of the 4th of December 1982 in Melbourne (Australia), the last two words on the minds of my parents was "Praise God!". Their firstborn son had been born without limbs! There were no warnings or time to prepare themselves for it. The doctors were shocked and had no answers at all!

The whole church mourned over my birth and my parents were absolutely devastated. "If God is a God of Love, then why would He let something this happen? especially to dedicated Christians" My Dad thought I wouldn't survive for very long, but tests proved that I was a healthy baby boy just with a few limbs missing.

Understandably, my parents had strong concern and evident fears of what kind of life I'd be able to lead. The first big hurdle was for my parents to be at peace and trusting that God was in control. It took a number of months of tears, questions and grief before coming to term within their own hearts. God provided them strength, wisdom and courage through those early years and soon after that I was old enough to go to school.

There were some people who assumed that because of my physical disability that it meant that I'd also be mentally disabled. The law in Australia didn't allow me to be integrated into a main-stream school because of my physical disability. God did miracles and gave my Mom the strength to fight for the law to be changed. I was one of the first disabled students to be integrated into a mainstream school.

I liked going to school, and try to live life like everyone else, but it was in my early years of school where I encountered uncomfortable times of feeling rejected, weird and bullied because of my physical difference. It was very hard for me to get used to, but with the support of my parents, I started to develop attitudes and values which helped me overcome these challenging times. I knew that I was different but on the inside I was just like everyone else. There were many times when I felt so low that I wouldn't go to school just so I didn't have to face all the negative attention. I was encouraged by my parents to ignore them and to try start making friends by just talking with some kids. Soon the students realized that I was just like them, and starting there God kept on blessing me with new friends.

There were times when I felt depressed and angry because I couldn't change the way I was, or blame anyone for that matter. I went to Sunday School and learned that God loves us all and that He cares for you. I understood that love to a point as a child, but I didn't understand that if God loved me why did He make me like this? Is it because I did something wrong? I thought I must have because out of all the kids at school, I'm the only weird one. I felt like I was a burden to those around me and the sooner I go, the better it'd be for everyone. I wanted to end my pain and end my life at a young age, but I am thankful once again, for my parents and family who were always there to comfort me and give me strength.

Due to my emotional struggles I had experienced with bullying, self esteem and loneliness, God has implanted a passion of sharing my story and experiences to help others cope with whatever challenge they have in their life and let God turn it into a blessing. To encourage and inspire others to live to their fullest potential and not let anything get in the way of accomplishing their hopes and dreams.

As I grew older God continued to prepare my heart and teach me to seek Him. One of the first lessons that I have learned was not to take things for granted. I had that wake up call around the age of twelve and realised just how much I was blessed with. I take my foot for granted, my family and all blessings that God had freely given and I still complain? I came across;

Romans 8:28 - "And we know that in all things God works for the best for those who love Him."

That verse spoke to my heart and convicted me to the point where that I know that there is no such thing as luck, chance or coincidence that these "bad" things happen in our life. In;

James 1:3&4 - "...know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."

I had complete peace knowing that God won't let anything happen to us in our life unless He has a good purpose for it all. I completely gave my life to Christ at the age of fifteen after reading John 9. Jesus said that the reason the man was born blind was "so that the works of God may be revealed through Him." I truly believed that God would heal me so I could be a great testimony of His Awesome Power. Later on I was given the wisdom to understand that if we pray for something, if it's God's will, it'll happen in His time. If it's not God's will for it to happen, then I know that He has something better. I now see that Glory revealed as He is using me just the way I am and in ways others can't be used.

I am now twenty-four years old and have completed a Bachelor of Commerce majoring in Financial Planning and Accounting. I am also a motivational speaker and love to go out and share my story and testimony wherever opportunities become available. I have developed talks to relate to and encourage students through topics that challenge today's teenagers. I am also a speaker in the corporate sector. For more information on Nick's presentations go to "Nick's Ministry".

In recent years, I have learned to become independent and can now take care of all my personal needs. I can do everything from brushing my teeth, combing my hair, dressing up, taking care of my personal hygiene and even shaving. I get around the house by jumpin' around and, outside the house, I get around in an electric wheelchair. I love to swim, fish and play soccer. I have a passion for reaching out to youth and keep myself available for whatever God wants me to do, and wherever He leads, I follow.

I have many dreams and goals that I have set to achieve in my life. I want to become the best witness I can be of God's Love and Hope, to become an international inspirational speaker and be used as a vessel in both Christian and non-Christian venues. I want to become financially independent by the age of 25, through real estate investments, to modify a car for me to drive and to be interviewed and share my story on the "Oprah Winfrey Show"! Writing several best-selling books has been one of my dreams and I hope to finish writing my first by the end of the year. It will be called "No Arms, No Legs, No Worries!"

You might think these goals are too far-fetched. However, I believe that if you have the desire and passion to do something, and if it's God's will, you will achieve it in good time. As humans, we continually put limits on ourselves for no reason at all! What's worse is putting limits on God who can do all things. We put God in a "box". The awesome thing about the Power of God, is that if we want to do something for God, instead of focusing on our capability, concentrate on our availability for we know that it is God through us and we can't do anything without Him. Once we make ourselves available for God's work, guess whose capabilities we rely on? God's!

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13

God has a Great Purpose for your life! As far as your unanswered prayers, remember that God is Faithful. What are we to do when we are seeking but not finding?

Jeremiah 29:12 - "Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the Lord...

Take courage my friend for the Battle is the Lord's and I urge you to keep striving for the truth. For it is the truth that will set you free and the Peace of God that surpasses all understanding will reign in your heart. May the Lord Bless you as you diligently seek Him and grant you Godly Wisdom and Strength through your journey.

If you know of an audience which may benefit from hearing Nick's story please contact us at support@lifewithoutlimbs.org - Have a look and see if Nick is speaking in your local area!

In Christ,
Nick Vujicic

Tuesday, September 04, 2007 ' 5:54:00 PM .

4/9/2007

went out shopping today... thought of what i want already... but went to bugis with my cousie to look out for more... she bought a pair of jeans for $29... cheap right...

after that, we went to charles & keith... i love the shoes there... i went to take a look around at the shoes while my cousie was looking at their belts... 2 white shoes caught my eye... one of them look nice when i wore it... so i wanted to take it... however, there isn't my size... so i asked the sales assistant to call other outlets to find if there were my size... so after that, we went to plaza singapura to get my shoes... i only knew that price when i was at the counter... it wasn't very expensive, i know...

but i think i have spent quite alot recently, so i try to limit myself... don't intend to spend more than $50 but i overshot... after buying the shoes, i then realise that i did not like it so much... sian lorx... i regret buying it... it is not as if i desperately need it or something... it was just out of a 'want'... the most important thing is that i intend to save... ahhh...

however, i really like the 'top' that i bought... so i think i felt a little better after buying the top... oh well... i want to stop spending... ahhh... once start, hard to stop... lols... since the start of august till now; lets see:
$28 + $53 + $45 + $32 + $20 + $8 = $186 (exclude meals/ food)

though it may not be alot to some of u... but it sure seems quite alot to me in only about one month... my parents don't give me money for shopping... so now my account got quite a big hole... lols... better work and put back the money huh... at the rate i am going i don't know how to get the new phone already... money money money...

i have been working at suntec theses few days... anyone want to buy swimsuits? there is some discount... check out the shop called 'sun paradise' at #01-096, if i'm not wrong... yupp...

oh ya, thanks for the pleasant suprise for visiting me... thank you to, andre, john & marcus... thanks for the water and hello panda, hubby... the stormy days are over... it is still rather cloudy... hope the sunny days will come soon... lols...

i knew a guy yesterday... he is hiring... he asked how much they are paying me and how many days do i work a week... we started chatting from there... i did not know that he was a physiotherapist... wow right... and he is paying $7 an hour... feel like just jumping there... but i think it would be more appropriate to hire a full-time receptionist than a part-time one... not sure... but the pay sure is attractive... lols...

oh ya, boy boy is adopted by someone in horizon gardens... i am very happy that they treat it rather well... they spent $450 to get it's sore throat done... they love him alot.. but sometimes, kids just want to play with it... boy boy's leg has a minor prob.. it is not that he cannot walk, but ti is just that he is old... and he cannot really run... it's leg has abit of problem... when i heard of this, my heart melt... i nearly teared...

now, things got worse... boy boy is missing! ahhhh... i am really very worried now... worried till i really want to cry... (please come back...) i don't want the money anymore, just want you to come back safely...