♥ eileen babe bee ♥

Friday, November 30, 2007 ' 2:11:00 PM .

30/11/2007

finally, i have finished moving house... before moving house, i was busy packing... during moving house, i was busy moving house... after moving house, i am busy unpacking... lols... it is tiring...

i could not really sleep last night... woke up a few times and didn't really sleep well... woke up in the morning with a very different environment... i am really not very used to it... i was lucky enough to get a ride from daddy in the morning to yio chu kang mrt station...

good news! my mummy may be staying with us... indeed god works in ways that we cannot see, praise the lord!

God is good all the time
He put a song of praise in this heart of mine
God is good all the time
Through the darkest night, His light will shine
God is good, God is good all the time

If you're walking through the valley
And there are shadows all around
Do not fear, He will guide you
He will keep you safe and sound
'Cause He's promised to never leave you
Nor forsake you and His Word is true

We were sinners - so unworthy
Still for us He chose to die
Filled us with His Holy Spirit
Now we can stand and testify
That His love is everlasting
And His mercies - they will never end

Tuesday, November 27, 2007 ' 11:12:00 PM .

27/11/2007

things have been ok and yet not very ok today... the morning was kind of nice, mummy fetched me to the mrt station again... went to school kind of late though...

class was pretty ok today... though it was kind of boring... well, at least the facilitator was not irritating... hahas... lols...

class ended about 4pm... made my way home as usual... mummy picked me up from the mrt again... yea... i like it... lols...

when i reached home, i ate some things and started packing... i had to bring my boxes down to the first floor alone... it was kind of tough... it was about 6 cartons... i felt like santa too... i packed all my toys into 3 huge bags... it was huge, just like the garbage bag's size... i had 3 of them... should add a huge tummy and the red suit and i can be santa... :)

when i moved things into the new house, some things cropped up... my dad was pretty pissed... he didn't really wanted to talk to anyone... he ask me to do and speak for him so that things would fall in place... oh well... my daddy also nearly got into a fight after that... it was kind of a "driver's thing"... oh well... he was in a bad mood...

i was in a normal mood until my headache came... gosh, i was kind of feeling giddy... guess my blood pressure may be a little low, better eat a little more meat and drink more water... the weather do not seem too good recently, doctors seem to be earning more... so the weaker people should take care... drink more water and eat more vitamins...

i am still out of love... feel a part of me missing somewhere... i am so missing my baby girl... ahhh...

Monday, November 26, 2007 ' 9:08:00 PM .

26/11/2007

have been spending time packing, moving and painting... pretty tiring...

andre and marcus came to help the other day... it was kind of embrassing... i was really messed up... paint all over my hands, arm, legs, feet and even a dot on my hair... gosh, was that messy or what...

there was even a bigger mess... guess what? the paint spilled!!! it caused messier hands and area... almost everyone had a hard time clearing up... lols...

my mummy took off-day today, it was nice that i got a ride to yio chu kang station in the morning and after school... it really made things easier for me... espically when things are pretty tiring now... both physically and emtionally... don't give me stress now!

time flies, i am moving out of here really soon... there are alot of memories here... many good and bad ones... stayed here for about 5 years already... cant believe i am really leaving here...

i am out of love... my loved one just left me today... as in really left me, don't think i will be seeing her anymore... i am feeling so so sad, i want a big hug... no one to welcome me home anymore, no one to play with me at home, no one to sleep beside me, no one to cheer me up when i am sad... i really miss you......

Friday, November 23, 2007 ' 9:42:00 PM .

23/11/2007 (2)

this is a special post i would like to make... guess some may know what it is about... but i just would like to say a special thank you to hubby... he as been quite a great help... lending a listening ear, giving comments and advices, helping to look after my brother & sisters, helping in the moving of house, helping during emergencies even though it is last minute... it is really quite a huge help not only to me, but to my family as well... life is unpredictable, there will be many ups and downs... it is not about the problems, it is about how you overcome the problem... it is not about the past, it is about the future... thanks hubby... :)

' 10:46:00 AM .

23/11/2007 (1)

know what this picture is about? it is my room now... super duper messy right... i feel so too... got to pack them real soon as i am moving house very very soon... starting a bit tommorrow, i guess...

in class now, feeling tired... for some reason, do not feel to good as well... have not fully recovered from a sickness yet... still having flu and cough...

i have done a mini test recently... want to know me better? read this... lols... i think i understand myself a little more also? i am not sure... try it out at this website:http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx... tell me about your's :)

this is my result:

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Wednesday, November 21, 2007 ' 9:59:00 PM .

21/11/2007

today's lesson was boring... a relief facilitator... it was a she... she is not very nice... she is just doing her job... many students in the class also don't like her... lols...

anyway, moving out soon... going to start during the coming weekend... will be staying at yio chu kang road by the coming week... thanks for the company and help given in the packing, hubby...

i need to find a right family for gal gal... ahhh... any interested? leave a comment or tag... will get back to you...

Tuesday, November 20, 2007 ' 9:40:00 PM .

20/11/2007

things are changing... not sure whether i can get use to it... but i guess time will help me out... have been thinking very hard whether to buy bus concession or both bus & train concession... i went to bugis with audrey today... and guess what, i start shopping again... i bought jeans and ear rings... lols...

hope to find someone good for my love soon... i want a loving family to care and love her...

Saturday, November 17, 2007 ' 10:52:00 AM .

17/11/2007

it has been an interesting day yesterday... i am still feeling rather sick... had new and special experiences... shall not elaborate so much... hahas... but basically, i enjoyed the evening onwards... thanks for listening, hubby...
we had a different facilitator in class today, it was kind of weird... not sure how to put it... but ya... lols... kind of boring...

here is my dog... i have to give it away... please contact me if any of you wants her k? it is not that i do not want her, in fact i love her very much... but the house that i am moving to, is rented... the owner do not allow dogs, as they are afriad that the dog will spoil their things... hope to find a good and right family for her to stay in...

Thursday, November 15, 2007 ' 9:45:00 AM .

15/11/2007

= Marriage ??? =

Before:Read from top down.

He: Marvelous! The moment I have been waiting for has arrived. I can't wait for it.
She: Can I regret?
He: No don't even think about it.
She: Do you love me?
He: Off course.
She: Will you betray me?
He: No way! How could you have such thoughts?
She: Can you kiss me?
He: Of course, not only once!
She: Will you hit me?
He: Never ever!
She: Can you be trusted?

After - please read from bottom up.. hahas!

Wednesday, November 14, 2007 ' 8:46:00 PM .

14/11/2007

i am sick... sobs...
a little fever, a little headache, a little flu, a little cough, a little sore throat, a little gastric... guess that's about it...
went home early to rest in the afternoon... slept for about 5 hours already and yet i am still not feeling charged up... lols...

Tuesday, November 13, 2007 ' 9:32:00 PM .

13/11/2007

today was ok... had a pleasant and great start, not sure about the ending though... oh well... i did not manage to finish my test... lols... oh well... its ok... went to visit the doctor today... took some medicine... hope it would help me... i am feeling so irritated with my throat! it hurts alot... it hurts even when i was drinking water...

there's about one more week to go before i move out... things are going to get complicated... starting to feel a little stress... not all things can be said, it needs confidence and atmosphere? i am not sure... it is a form letting out a little of how i feel from here i guess...

sometimes, staying at home may not be the best thing... but sometimes, what is then the relaxing thing to do? lols... don't know if the cause is due to lack to sleep, stress or even changes... perhaps i just should not think so much, feel so much or care so much? i dont know.... guess some sleep will do the job...
"some things cannot be understood by others, maybe not even family or your closest friend"...

Monday, November 12, 2007 ' 10:08:00 PM .

12/11/2007

it has been quite some time since i updated... oh well... there's nothing much, i guess...

basically, i worked during my one week of holiday... and of course, i take some days of as well... however, it seems like i do not have enough rest... my eyes are more sensitive and red nowadays...

wondering what are all those photos on the top? it is my job... very tiring and busy... sometimes, you really would have no time to eat... however, as i said, the joy this job is in the kids and not the parents... hahas... i made i mistake, from work... my supervior called me telling me i made a mistake, and the customer would not want it... wonder how is it going to be settled... haiz...

have you seen the $20 note? gosh, i think it looks kind of cool... check it out...

things have been tiring for me recently... seems like i have to do some things but i am not sure what is it... lols... i am moving out soon... really wonder if i can get use to it...

i really cant bear to leave here... all the changes are starting soon... my house, my family, my dog, my church, my cg, and perhaps some more... though i know changes may be good, but i still kind of hope that it will not change... oh well, not sure about things now... got to get enough rest first... one thing at a time; or rather, manage things within my capability... just like juggling, if you cant juggle 3, den juggle 2... simple as that... hahas... check out the photos... :)

Tuesday, November 06, 2007 ' 11:05:00 AM .

6/11/2007

i am working at V.max now... used to work there last time... anyway, i kind of like this job is cause i get to see the little happiness on the childrens' faces... it is pretty enjoyable.. however, the part whereby, i do not like, is when there are too much to handle and there are some very fussy customers [parents]...

i saw horses yesterday... hahas... they are so cute... wonder how come i can see horses when i am working? because, i slack... hahas... but it was just for a little while ok... :)

Pasir Ris is really pretty far... got to sit a train tide of an hour everyday, not counting the trip back... it takes 2 hours if you count going there and coming back... it is really pretty tiring, espically after work...

wondering what is that photo on the top? it is my ez-link card... it it cute? i kind of like it alot... how i wished it was hello kitty though... bleh... :p

my mind is clear but my feelings seems to not be getting any better... perhaps it is just the world... it changes, so do people? i want to bubbly all the time... maybe i have also changed? if i have, i am sorry... sorry if anyone was affected by it... hope to be back soon... :)

trust? basic trust for normal friends... good trust for good friends... close and good trust for close friends... lots of trust for best friends and boyfriend... it is always easy to doubt, learn how to trust... however when the trust is brokened, it takes lots of effort and time to mend it back... provided the person wants to give a second chance...

don't know what i saying also... lols... anyway, i am going to move out soon... i really cant bear... ah... sobs... :(

Sunday, November 04, 2007 ' 11:29:00 PM .

4/11/2007

it is my "first" day of work today... it is back to V.max, by the way... my previous job... it is at bishan... the coming next few days are going to be at Pasir Ris... gosh, is that far or what? i am going to spend more than 2 hours travelling...

oh ya, by the way, it is arise and build... time to pledge and sacrifice... time for more and more prayers too... yea... we should not look into the problem more than God...

anyway, i am not sure how things are going on for me now... my mind is clear, for i know the truth, the life and the way... however, my feelings are a little mixed... cant figure the cause of it neither is it good or bad... for all i know, it will come to past...

there is no joy in my circumstances,
but there is joy in the purpose of the circumstance..

faith without works are dead..
it is not how much faith you have,
it is what you do with your little faith..

Friday, November 02, 2007 ' 11:02:00 AM .

2/11/2007

What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?

What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life.

I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.

Say this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk, or how close you are, and say it to the person who said it to you.

Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will.

Remember, everyone needs a friend, someday you might feel like you have No Friends at all, just remember this and take comfort in knowing somebody out there cares about you and always will.

In times of trouble, In times of need, If you are feeling Sad,

You can count on me.
I will give you a wink,

Until you smile,

give you a hug,

And stand by your side.
I'll be there for you till the end, I'll always and forever, be your friend!

Thursday, November 01, 2007 ' 12:16:00 AM .

1/11/2007

i am feeling kind of better now... :)
to my friends, thanks for trying to cheer me up... thank you...

i feel rather dumb... i turned on my lappy in the bus so that i can submit my reflection journal on time, 12am sharp. i rushed all the way home, rushed the RJ, not realising that it closes at 2am... lols... all the rush for nothing... i didn't even do the RJ properly...

it is the start of november!
happy november! may everything go well...
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came back home after school... such a good girl right... hahas...

time flies... it is about time to move out of horizon gardens... i really like the environment around here... kind of cant bear to leave... it is relaxing here at night... quite a beautiful scenery...

haiz... everything seems to be changing... my house, family, just changed new class, may change my dog also, and maybe more... oh well... sometimes, it is nice to have something that remains... oh well... 'walk one step, count one step' lor... hahas...