♥ eileen babe bee ♥

Wednesday, October 31, 2007 ' 9:29:00 AM .

31/10/2007

things are settled now... but not all, i guess...
well, at least the root is gone now...
things are getting on the low...
hope things will turn around really soon...

there's this Anonymous that tagged my blog...
though i don't know who are you, but please do not judge me...
for only one can judge me, for it is Him...

if anyone has been hurt, i am sorry...
but, i have been hurt too...

have been listening to this song, don't know why...
can check it out...

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Lyrics: Shayne Ward - If Thats Ok With You lyrics

If That's OK With You
I love the way you look without your make up
I had a girl before we met but we broke up
Theres something 'bout you that makes me want to step up
step up and be with you
If That's Ok With You

We'll keep the neighbors awake too late too late
cos imma make you feel so good thats how I see it happening
yeah we'll keep the neighbours awake to late too late
cos baby I wanna step up and be with you
if thats ok with you

im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth
I'm gonna thank your mother just for giving you birth
im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you

I wanna keep your toothbrush at my appartment
Make a second set of keys and ask you to move in
I'm not crazy
I know what im getting myself in
I wanna live with you
If thats ok with you

i'm gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth
I'm gonna thank your mother just for giving you birth
im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
yeah yeah

we'll keep the neighbours awake too late too late
I wanna love you this way that way this way
We'll keep the neighbours awake too late too late
I wanna love you this way that way this way

im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth
I'm gonna thank your mother just for giving you birth
im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
Im gonna love you

im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth
I'm gonna thank your mother just for giving you birth
im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
If thats ok with you

Tuesday, October 30, 2007 ' 9:13:00 AM .

30/10/2007

pissed.

waking up in the morning just intending to wish someone all the best... thought it would be a normal and pleasant day...

then again, in the morning, things didn't go to well. mornings somehow just cant really get pleasant continuously for a week...

a few moments back, it felt like X were behind my back supporting me, pushing me... the next moment, it felt that X was just sitting on the fence...

if X is not here to help me to push me and support me, the very least X could do is just not to pull me down...

example?

when A is talking nicely to B, B should just talk nicely as well. however, when B pisses A off, A would be pissed and has a high posibility to piss B off as well... from there, things would just add on...

when a favour is being asked, if X has agreed, then do it well and willingly... if not, just reject or just get it done and over with...

haiz... i am not sure what am i saying also...

just pissed, tired, sian, and many more examples below...

one thing for sure,
it does NoT make you any "RiGhT" by NoT doing any "WrOnG"...
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PAIN
agony
anguished
bereaved
devastated
grief
heartbroken
hurt
lonely
miserable
regretful
remorseful

SAD
depressed
dejected
despair
despondent
disappointed
discouraged
disheartened
forlorn
gloomy
heavy hearted
hopeless
melancholy
unhappy
wretched

TENSE
anxious
cranky
distressed
distraught
edgy
fidgety
frazzled
irritable
jittery
nervous
overwhelmed
restless
stressed out

VULNERABLE
fragile
guarded
helpless
insecure
leery
reserved
sensitive
shaky

YEARNING
envious
jealous
longing
nostalgic
pining
wistful

AFRAID
apprehensive
dread
foreboding
frightened
mistrustful
panicked
petrified
scared
suspicious
terrified
wary
worried

ANNOYED
aggravated
dismayed
disgruntled
displeased
exasperated
frustrated
impatient
irritated
irked

ANGRY
enraged
furious
incensed
indignant
irate
livid
outraged
resentful

AVERSION
animosity
appalled
contempt
disgusted
dislike
hate
horrified
hostile
repulsed

CONFUSED
ambivalent
baffled
bewildered
dazed
hesitant
lost
mystified
perplexed
puzzled
torn

DISCONNECTED
alienated
aloof
apathetic
bored
cold
detached
distant
distracted
indifferent
numb
removed
uninterested
withdrawn

DISQUIET
agitated
alarmed
discombobulated
disconcerted
disturbed
perturbed
rattled
restless
shocked
startled
surprised
troubled
turbulent
turmoil
uncomfortable
uneasy
unnerved
unsettled
upset

EMBARRASSED
ashamed
chagrined
flustered
guilty
mortified
self-conscious

FATIGUE
beat
burnt out
depleted
exhausted
lethargic
listless
sleepy
tired
weary
worn out

Friday, October 26, 2007 ' 10:55:00 PM .

26/10/2007

fridays is the day that i enjoy most in school...

i signed up today! :) yea...

it has been some time...

miss you...

Thursday, October 25, 2007 ' 10:41:00 PM .

25/10/2007

look at my twin sister... hahas... just got back from work and finished my RJ... pretty tired, but not sleepy... oh well, guess it have been an interesting and boring day... lols... not sure what i talking also...

a word is a unit of language that carries meaning and consists of one or more morphemes which are linked more or less tightly together, and has a phonetical value;
words have power,
but words are still words,
actions speaks alot louder than words,
words can change in the matter of time,
so do people

Wednesday, October 24, 2007 ' 8:27:00 PM .

24/10/2007

i just updated my slide show... cause i am pretty bored with the old one... how is it? i guess it is better right... i have also put my schedule in = my schedule = column... can go check it out... lols...

oh well... i have been thinking quite alot recently... not sure why and how... but i guess, it is doing some good? i am not sure... i realise in the past i have been putting things aside to make me feel better and not stress... however, putting things aside does not mean that they would not come back... some things, you thought that you not go through again, may still come back... the best solution is to solve it... so that even though the problem do happens again, we would know it how to deal with it better after every time we deal with it...

everyone would have experience different kind of difficulty in life... it is just how big it can be... be it physically or emotionally... the interesting thing is people have feelings... our feelings are a natural response to our thoughts and intentions... we don’t really choose our feelings directly... our feelings are a feedback mechanism... they indicate whether we’re moving into alignment with our true desires (positive feelings) or out of alignment (negative feelings)... that is why some people have depression...

i guess one of the things that has been getting in my mind prioritising too... it seems like i have prioritise things not very right... think it is time i should get to it? though there is no right answer to how to priortise things right, but i think it could be done better... i have found a way to start... i should start on the things i have not been doing than the things i have not done before...

Sunday, October 21, 2007 ' 7:55:00 PM .

21/10/2007

feeling a little tired today... even though i slept quite a lot... lols... such a pig right? have been having minor flu and cough recently... my eyes seems more sensitive recently too, irritating me a bit... guess i have got to go visit the doctor soon... bleh...

have been working for these few months... wondering why i work? i want to buy things [shopping] and do a little savings... and of course, for some work experience too... lols... sometimes, overspend a bit too... so got to work... i may be changing my job... or rather, i have changed my job... starting the new job next month... trying out... if i am not comfortable with it, i think i will come back to my current job now... oh well...

time is never enough, it is how people make time for things so that time would be enough... oh well... no one can read any one's mind totally... if a person do not say, others do not know... sometimes, people do or say things un-intentionally... found out something that was rather interesting... take a look... :)

= Why Singlish is better? = [Compare and see!]

When going shopping...
Britons: I'm sorry, Sir, but we don't seem to have the sweater you want in your size, but if you give me a moment, I can call the other outlets for you.
S'poreans: No Stock!

When someone is in the way...
Britons : Excuse me, I'd like to get by. Would you please make way?
S'poreans: Siam lai! or Siam, hor! or Skius!

When someone offers to pay...
Britons : Hey, put your wallet away, this drink is on me.
S'poreans: no need lah

When asking for permission...
Britons : Excuse me, but do you think it would be possible for me to enter through this door?
S'poreans: (while pointing at door) Can pass or Not?

When asking to be excused...
Britons : If you would excuse me for a moment, I have to go to the gents/ladies. Please carry on without me, it would only take a moment.
S'poreans: Go toilet. Buay tahan ahh.....

When entertaining...
Britons : Please make yourself right at home.
S'poreans: Don't shy shy lah..

When doubting someone...
Britons : I don't recall you giving me the money.
S'poreans: Got meh?

When deciding on a plan of action...
Britons : What do you propose we do now that the movie's sold out & all the restaurants are closed?
S'poreans: So how?

When disagreeing on a topic of discussion...
Britons : Err. Tom, I have to stop you there. I understand where you're coming from, but I really have to disagree with what you said about the policy.
S'poreans: Talk cock lah you!

When asking someone to lower their voice...
Britons : Excuse me, but could you please lower your voice, I'm trying to concentrate over here.
S'poreans: Eh, Tiam leh!

When asking someone if he/she knows you...
Britons : Excuse me, but I noticed you staring at me for some time.
Do I know you?
S'poreans: See what see?!

Friday, October 19, 2007 ' 1:04:00 PM .

19/10/2007

it has been a long time since i blogged... recently, things have been rather ok i think... ups and downs... lols...

a few days back, the nasi lemak stall bully me... cheat my money... lols... i asked if i could buy the meal and change the rice to noodles, the vendor said can... it was only $3.50... then when i was paying, the cashier said it was $4.80... i ask her why, cause i asked just now and you all say can... then she said, "did you ask me?"... it is like, such a bad attitude, you are doing the cashiering, it is natural for to ask the person perparing the food and not collecting the money what...

less than an hour back, the stupid "xiao tu" hit me... gosh! it hurts!~ i have evidence, it may not be very obvious, but it is red...! not lying ok, i got witness... lols... hahas...

hahas... have been craving for chocolate recently... and also, "hello panda"... yea... nice nice to munch... :P

went to school yesterday for UT, then came back because i was really not feeling too good... wanted to go home and rest... left school with "xiao tu", she also not feelin well... pretty lame huh... i thought so too... but i wanted rest... think i had rest, but not enough rest... lols... sleep is seldom enough to me... hahas...

i really do not like people who lie to me... i will never be as mad of the things that are said, i will be more mad if the person lies to me... space is something that everyone need... if anyone wants to cross the line, they should get approval... it is never nice when there is an unwillingly party...

one more day to a special day... :)

Thursday, October 11, 2007 ' 10:52:00 PM .

11/10/2007

i am feeling rather tired... went back home a little late yesterday... having a little of a tummy ache... slept rather well... had to wake early in the morning... had UT in the morning... in a bit of rush to school... lesson was very neutral... nothing to say... lols... after school, rush to work... after work rush home... when home, rush for my RJ... when i completed and want to submit, i found out that the facilitator changed the question... ahhh....! then, i had to start all over again to rush to do the RJ... [all of this is a minor rush, i guess]

found out something very interesting thing today, take a look:
the more I learn, the more I know.
the more I know, the more I forget.
the more I forget, the lesser I know.
so, why learn?

Wednesday, October 10, 2007 ' 10:44:00 AM .

10/10/2007

not having an enjoyable time since monday... just my schedule if anyone wants to know... i did not enjoy computing and science in semester 1... now, i think it is getting worse, as the lesson gets tougher and tougher... lols... i do not like the start of each week now... super duper sian... as you can see below, the start of the week is something that i am not looking forward to... as for the rest, it is still rather ok... being a bit grumpy lately... sorry people... the good thing is that i feel better by watching movie, play games, sleeping or even eating... hahas... lols... anyway, my schedule is below too... as for tue and wed it depends... cause sometimes, people book me in advance then not free le... for more information or enquiry, message or call me...

--- module ---
monday ~ science
tuesday ~ computing maths
wednesday ~ enterprise
thursday ~ problem solving
friday ~ culture

--- schedule ---
monday ~ CCA / IG [dance]
tuesday ~ nothing
wednesday ~ nothing
thursday ~ work
friday ~ cell group
saturday ~ church
sunday ~ work

Tuesday, October 09, 2007 ' 9:37:00 PM .

9/10/2007

everyone has ups and downs in life... however, it is how individual deals with it... there are many things happening around... every single day, every single minute, every single second, there will be things happening around... it is just if it happen around you or on you... oh well, i am glad it is no longer 1+1=2 and it is 2 in 1...

Life is like a blanket too short. You pull it up and your toes rebel, you yank it down and shivers meander about your shoulder; but cheerful folks manage to draw their knees up and pass a very comfortable night. ~Marion Howard

Thursday, October 04, 2007 ' 10:46:00 PM .

4/10/2007

it is a module on problem solving today... went to school as usual... don't know why, lesson seemed rather boring... then, my girl friends suggested to go to causeway to have mcdonald's breakfast... a few of us agreed... and so we went... there were eight of us... we ate breakfast and walked back to school... we were very late for our second meeting... we were about half an hour late... hahas... facilitator gave us warning... but no one seemed as if they cared about the faciliator... lols... hahas... after school, i went for work... andre visited me... have not worked after school for quite some time... oh well... anyway, i'm back home now... feeling rather tired... but not sleepy, i guess... lols...

Wednesday, October 03, 2007 ' 8:25:00 PM .

3/10/2007

feeling slightly better today... however, i am still not well... i wore 3 jackets n class today... i felt ok only... well, at least not very cold... lols... thinking of buying skinny jeans... some say straight cut is still the same... so i am not sure whether do i still want to get it... oh well... shall ponder about it then... lols... things have been going ok recently...

Tuesday, October 02, 2007 ' 10:01:00 PM .

2/10/2007

ahhh... don't feel good... i wore 2 jackets in class today... and yet i am still feeling cold... oh well... had been having a headache recently... now got a bit of flu and cough as well... in addition, i have a terrible, killing stomach ache... feel like chopping off body parts... lols... hope to get well soon... don't know whether i'll go school tomorrow... i don't intend to skip so early of the semester... wanted to clear my 2 weeks leave at the end of the semester or something... oh well... not sure about it now... lols...

Monday, October 01, 2007 ' 10:57:00 PM .

1/10/2007

my birthday has passed... woo hoo... 18 now... lols... on friday, my class sang a birthday songs for me... they even gave me a slice of cheese cake and a birthday card as my present...
my cell group gave me a present name skin food... specially sit aeroplane from taiwan... lols... celebrated my birthday on sunday... had a few of my friends here with me with my relatives... enjoyed the time... thanks!

thanks to:
classmates W34E;
cell group N28;
he wei, jiang ping, wei jian;
audrey, amanda;
wei wei, yang yang;
susan, kelvin;
melvin, may;
marcus hubby;
song fei;
for presents

thanks to all the people who have wished and message me happy birthday... muacks! here are some photos of my present... hahas... :)